:: 7 days ::
it's coming! and i'm getting too excited!
3 years since he declared me his property. 3 years since he first held my hand. 3 years since my heart first felt those palpitations when he comes near me.
3 years have gone by jus like tt. guess when u r happy, time passes exceptionally quickly. 3 years isn't a long time, but it isn't short either. however, it has felt like forever with him. like 5 years, like 6. but.. it has only been 3.. is tt a good sign..? it's ironic. cuz 3 years passed so quickly.. yet it felt like such a long time..
we haf not elaborately celebrated our yearly anniversaries. even tho i remember our 1st anniversary clearly in my mind. even wat we were wearing, i can remember.
the night before our anniversary, he came to my plc ten minutes b4 midnight. i went downstairs.. and we sat in the car and waited for the clock to strike midnight. and when it did, bb took out a piece of paper tt he scribbled on and started to recite a poem.. it was William Shakespeare's Sonnet 18..! he knew i loved everything shakespearian.. and it went like this:
"Shall I compare thee to a summer day?
Thou art more lovely and temperate;
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date;
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest;
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee."
omg... it was so romantic (even tho at tt point in time i didn't realli get the meaning of this sonnet!) i was so moved i cud only kiss him over and over again.. too damn sweet! definitely the most romantic thing he ever did!
the nex day, we went for dinner at an italian restarant at wisma.. then we proceeded to altivo at mount faber. it was meant to b a surprise but i guessed halfway thru the journey cuz i recognised the road! :) we were driving the lil van then.. i got my shakespeare book and a nice shawl as our anniversary present from dear.. it was wrapped in a pink box with a red ribbon.. funny how i can't rem wat i got him tho. i think it was a kenneth cole wallet. :p but something tells me it wasn't.. or was it the kenneth cole belt..? ar.. dunno!!
we had a lot of fun at the altivo.. it was a nice breezy night and we had seats facing the cable cars.. we sipped on red wine.. and played truth or dare.. we both asked all the things we ever wanted to kno.. from our first dates.. to our kinky secrets.. and also the lil things we did for each other tt touched our hearts.. it realli brought us closer.
i was feeling all warm and cozy when i slept in bed tt night.. it might b due to the red wine too, of cuz. :p tt was our 1st anniversary..
my memories of our 2nd year anniversary are slightly blurred. altho i rem wat present i got for dear.. :) i made him hearts out of straws and bought him a bag.. he came to my place the night b4 and we went out for a while.. when he sent me home, i gave him his present and he was so touched cuz we actually promised not to get presents for each other but i still did and he realli took my word and didn't get me anything. i was ok with it but he got real upset with himself for being so unthoughtful. i can still rem his sad face as he took the hearts and his bag from me and turned to go.. i think it was the hearts tt moved him too much and made him upset with himself.. i think i made 143 hearts altogether.. if i rem correctly. :p
the next day he came to pick me up after he finished work and me after school (still in nyp then!).. and i rem going into the car.. not noticing the bouquet of flowers seated in between the seats. (he managed to get the van tt day.. even tho he was oredi riding his bike..) he had to signal my attention to the flowers and only then did i notice them. it was the first bouquet of flowers he ever got me.. :) sadly, i can't rem where we went for dinner tt day tho!! argh. memory fails me every now and then.. :(
and now.. our 3rd year anniversary.. this anniversary means much more to me.. for some reason, we haf weathered some horrible storms in the past year.. and resolved many fatal differences between us. i like e way we r in the relationship now.. and i still miss him when i dun see him for a day.. still tingle with joy when he reaches out to take my hand.. :) it has become much much stronger during this past year.. and this anniversary is realli special to me.. i jus can't wait for it to come..
this time nex week.. i hope i'll b beaming with lotsa love and overflowing with joy.. :)
jus 7 days to go..
:: Game ::
this is quite funny. some of it actually turned out quite apt!instructions: go to your player of choice and put it on shuffle. say the following questions aloud, and press play. use the song title as the answer to the question. DO NOT CHEAT.
how does the world see me?don't wanna lose you now - BSB ~
hahaha.. i am sure i am very very valuable in this world..!will i have a happy life?xi guan zhe yang (used to this) - penny dai ~
if it means it will be like wat i am leading now.. honestly it is good!what do my friends really think of me?mei yi tian dou xiang nian (misses everyday) - daniel chan ~
wat can i say.. my frens alwaes miss me!!do people secretly lust after me?wo shi wo (I am me) -
Stef Sun ~ i dunno how to interpret this one. do help if u do!how can i make myself happy?All i have to give - BSB ~
now tt is true. i am truly happy when i am giving. b it love, care or money!what can i do with my life?hua ni (drawing you) - AT17 ~
draw u?? who? i am not artistically inclined! then how?will i ever have children?hui yi xin - edison chen ~
sorry i dun exactly kno wat this means in mandarin.. it's a cantonese song!what is some good advice for me?Give love a break - joey yung ~
haahaha.. good one!!how will i be remembered?dong yin (cold drinks) - edison chen ~
well i do take many cold drinks.. but this is a weird way to b remembered by!what is my signature dancing song?this is our song - code red ~
this isn't even a song to dance to! hello!what do i think my current theme song is?venus - stef sun ~
omg.. YES!! this is true! *i'm your venus, i'm your fire.. at your desire..*what does everyone else think my current theme song is?chun zhen (innocence) - fish leung ~
gosh.. do ppl think i am childish???what song will play at my funeral?only trust your heart - astrud gilberto ~
how inspirational. no comments.what sort of men do i like?pls try again later - joey yung ~
haha.. yes the try try and try again type!! i like!what is my day going to be like?gui ji (trails) - jay chou ~
a day for refelctions?? probably.special thanks to my iPod! :p
:: Our 3rd Year Anniversary ::
Me: So are we gonna celebrate our anniversary in advance? Rem i told u the voucher for the seafood buffet at Ritz Calrton is only applicable Fri and Sat? Our actual day falls on a Wed. So how?
B: Which day you wanna celebrate? I think celebrate actual day better.
Me: I was thinking of saving money.. and since we never had dinner at Ritz before.. we cud go try it.. and take it as our anniversary dinner..
B: Ok then we celebrate on Sat.
Me: But we will still go out on the actual day on Wed, rite?
B: Of cuz, meet up after work la.
Me: Then we will still hafta do dinner.. aiya celebrate on Wed la. Jus haf something simple and we keep that voucher for some other day.
B: Ok.. u very contradicting leh. I oredi say celebrate on actual day jus now wat.
Me: .... we jus haf something simple for dinner la, ok?
B: Ok.
Me: I will think of where to go for dinner, u think of the "after party" ok?
B: .... *stares blankly*
Me: Why? You dun wanna think ar?
B: .... *stares blankly*
Me: Hai.. i knew it.. as usual.. can't think of where to go.. I oredi kno where we can go for dinner!
B: .... *stares blankly* *stares turns into intense concentration* where we going for dinner?
Me: This chinese restaurant at Majestic hotel. My customer brought me there once. Very nice!
B: *looking concerned* where issit?
Me: Chinatown. Ok?
B: .... *stares blankly*
wat a weird conversation. tt ended with no consenscus. wth. i felt something fishy tho. he has other plans, maybe?:)
:: EQ & IQ ::
the issue of EQ and IQ alwaes puzzled me. It is a blessing to haf both co-existing in one's mind.. but unfortunately.. tt is often not the case. no one wants to think of themselves as having low IQ/EQ. and anywaes, how do u actually measure ur own EQ/IQ w/o gg for those formal tests..? (anywae i dun exactly trust them.. look at XX.)
in my opinion, EQ is much more impt compared to IQ. wat's e use of having high IQ when u haf low EQ? u wun kno how to maximise your IQ since.. u haf no EQ. u probably make more ppl hate u. the problem with these high IQ ppl is tt.. they are SO smart tt they think they haf high EQ too. *eyelids flutter non-stop* and because they alwaes think they r e smartest and definitely smarter than u, they will not, for a moment stop to think abt wat u haf to comment abt them. hey, they r the smartest, ok?
whereas those with higher EQ than IQ.. they may not b the smartest.. but at least they kno wat to do wat not to do at the right/wrong time. now, tt makes them smarter than the smart alecks. sometimes the more u try to explain something/prove your point, the plan backfires. and tt normally is wat happens with those high IQ ppl.
i may jus b acting like those high IQ ppl.. oblivious to my own incapabilities. but one thing for sure, i recognise someone with low/zero EQ when he/she is only concerned abt himself/herself, and thinks the world revolves ard them. with absolutely no passing thought to make those ard them feel comfortable.
it cud also b due to the fact tt this person has got absolutely no life.. and so the person likes to magnify every little thing that happens in the person's life.. jus to make the person look like the person has a life.
haha. yes i am trying not to mention names here. so lest i do, tt'll b all!
i haf jus indirectly admitted tt i haf low IQ, ok? :p
:: my soccer heroes! ::
i kno someone who is a sports editor of the soccer column in the newpaper.. i was viewing his pictures on friendster and suddenly.. i came cross this..
Hidetoshi Nakata! The hottest soccer player in Japan..! OMG. This picture of him is so to-die-for!! The only soccer players that can entice me to the telly during a soccer match are:
Cristiano Ronaldo(Man U)
Hidetoshi Nakata(Bolton)
and Harry Kewell (Liverpool)
haha. so u see, i am not realli watching soccer. i am watching men. :p but unfortunately, soccer matches dun alwaes show close up shots of these gorgeous boys.. so.. it can get boring too waiting for the camera to capture their handsome faces on the screen..
oh but when they do.. the excitement.. man..
to-die-for.
**Jeff, if ever you come across this post, yes the nakata photo is yours! :p Forgive me for stealing it! :D**
:: handsome boy! ::
*him* at his cousin's wedding..
SO CUTE! :)
:: guess who? ::
*..sigh..*
:: wedding in JB ::
over the weekend i went for a wedding dinner in JB. it was a very refreshing experience, considering the fact tt i've only been to JB (including this one) 3 times in my life. each time not lasting more than one day. sad!
the wedding was tt of my bf's colleague's. who also happens to b my ex-colleague's sister. haha. told u my bf and i haf many many connections between us! so i didn't exactly tag along ok.. i knew the bride briefly, at least! :p (funny thing is the bride remembers me but not my ex-colleague. hahha. apparently i look entirely different with my hair down..?! maybe i jus look too average for anyone to remember la! jus say it, i can deal with it!!)
so of cuz, it started with tt dreadful evening ride to JB, which was extremely comfy for my bf and i since we sat in his boss's MPV! :) we had the back seat all to ourselves and since we aren't tt big-sized, it was quite cushy.. and cozy. :) so it felt like a relatively short ride tt was not more than half an hour. (ard there la!) we went straight to the restaurant since the venue of the restarant didn't have much entertainment to keep us occuppied. we sat at our table, drinking glass after glass of water, orange juice and beer. until the in-house entertainment came on.
a 3 piece band, one keyboardist, one bass guitarist and one guitarist. with 2 chinese girls as their singers. they started off quite nicely.. one girl sings after the other, song after song.. one sings only in english and the other in mandarin. the mandarin singer was clearly better as she had a crystal clear voice and it was sweet too. the one tt sang in english was good until she started breaking out in jazz. she clearly does not haf a jazzy voice. jazz voices haf to b light yet powerful. hers was strong and piercing. and she delivered all the jazz numbers with such force i cringed a few times throughout the night. (yes they sang throughout the night!) and towards the end, she was oredi using watever energy she had to scream out the songs. omg. luckily it was only for the last 2 songs and then i left. oh wat happened to the madarin singer eh? halfway through the ending, she kinda stopped singing. and i reckoned it's becuz she was starting to lose her crystal clear voice cuz she was starting to break up in the middle of her last few songs.
aren't very professional, i say. but sure started out well.
that was not the most irritating thing tho. (i kno i'm so mean to point out all the bad stuff.. but.. it's jus a terrible habit i haf.. but i'm realli harmless!!) like i said, there were 2 girls. one tt sang in mandarin, and one tt sang in english. so each time b4 a song, they wud introduce their song, right? the mandarin singing girl wud alwaes intro her songs in mandarin.. and the english singing girl, in english. here comes the thing, the mandarin speaking girl is perfectly fine.. flawless and all (with no m'sian accent). the english speaking one... god help me. she was slanging throughout the night.. and no one cud understand a single word she said!! it was so frustrating and when i finally realised why we cudn't understand her (cuz she was slanging) i understood wat she was saying. after each song the mandarin singing girl delivered, she wud follow with, "thank you, tt was a wonderful song. the next song is a nice one by.." song after song, she wud repeat these 15 words w/o fail, only changing the song title and artist. I WAS GOING CRAZY. and with tt slang!!! argh!! i had a good mind to go up on stage and take over the mic!!! :p
ok, entertainment aside.. i was hugely disappointed with the way the newly weds made their entrance!! i dunno abt other girls but to me, the entrance part of the wedding dinner is THE part! and if tt screws up, i wud so cry over it! (immediately!)
here is how the entrance went: MC announces their arrival, wedding march comes on, door opens, bridegroom and bride sashays in.. well wishers pop their confettis and showers flowers upon them.. cameras snapping away.. newly wed makes their way to the table. THEN, light comes on. YES!! all that happened in the dark! WTH! wat were we supposed to see...??? the only time we ever saw anything, was when a camera flash went off! my goodness! if i were the bride, i wud demand a rewind, i mean.. who the hell cud see the beautiful bride in the dark!!! where did their brains go to i wonder! argh! and the worse thing is.. right after they reached their table and sat down, they served the cold dish IMMEDIATELY! tt is such disrespect for the couple. and absolutely no attention on them!!! OMG. tt wud b a terrible thing to happen on my wedding. i dunno if it was deliberate or due to a technical glitch. all i kno is if it were my wedding, i wud b devastated. :( it's my wedding and yet no one saw me coming in...?? sad sad sad sad sad~
so ya, tt being said. i guess it didn't bother the couple cuz they didn't make any hooha and they looked extremely happy still. *shrugs shoulder* wateva works i guess!
the food was great tho. i mean, it was a restaurant, it had to b good right. i did enjoy myself at the wedding tho cuz my bf and i had lots to yak abt tt night. and his colleagues were also wonderfully humourous. such a pleasure to haf as company. :)
and at the end of the wedding, my ex colleague finally recalled who i was. :/ gg home was also fast.. we took the 2nd link and there was no jam at all! :) my bf and i took the back seat again and had a happy and comfy ride home. :)
suddenly puts me in a wedding mood. :) but i kno i wun b spending too much cuz i'd much rather haf a splendid home than a grand wedding. let's hope my blog will still b ard to capture those special moments! :)
:: the one & only YODA ::
i didn't think i was affected. not at all. in fact i saw it coming. woman's intuition, sixth sense, wateva. i knew it was gg to happen while everyone was shocked at his departure to join a competitor.
he is my mentor, he taught me everything i kno of my job now. he thot me how to negotiate, how to b "buddy buddy" with everybody. sometimes he even listens to my problems outside of work and gives me advice. he was like a master yoda to his young apprentice. i looked up to him like a big brother.
he wanted to help me in building my career path, prospecting for the right jobs for me when he knew i didn't like wat i was doing here.
in a way, we both alwaes felt we were guy and girl versions of each other. even the way we treated our partners were the same!! (we even concluded we wud make a terrible couple. haha) it was genuinely pure brother sister feelings btween us. and i loved him in tt way too.
but when it comes to work, he was stern and sometimes demanding of me. in the office i was afraid of him. but outside of office, he was the most fun person to b with.
when i heard tt he resigned, i was not shocked. i jus felt a bit lost cuz i wud b boss-less now. but life went on, w/o him in the office.. i didn't feel much of an impact.. until today..
our company held a farewell lunch for him at fullerton today. i choose to sit away from him at a different table cuz.. i guess subconsciously i knew i might b affected somehow. so thruout lunch i was ok.. eating and joking with e rest of my colleagues. until when he got up to say goodbye to everybody, i handed him a goodbye card signed by everyone.. i suddenly felt.. this emptiness. working w/o him is jus different. when he walked out of the restaurant, i suddenly grew quiet. and.. i started to miss him oredi.. the thot of not having him to tell me the hows and whats.. i was realli alone in the office now. we used to work closely as a team. we cover each other's back. now it feels like i am in a battle on my own.. watching my own back.. :(
he'll nv see this post but.. hey mike, gonna miss u!! i kno i nv realli met ur expectations of me but i realli appreciate the time and effort u took to "groom' me. u were and are probably gg to b e most patient boss tt will ever cross my path. no matter how stressed out u were, u nv once took it out on me (even if i was e one tt screwed it up). i haf no other words to express all the gratitude tt i haf for u but i kno u kno it in ur heart. take good care and pls keep in touch ok! *tear drops*
:: misery! ::
sometimes i realli dunno how to feel, what to feel and how to deal with what i feel. i jolly well kno the profession he is in and i shud also jolly well accept all tt comes with the profession. after all, maintaining relationships is what gets him more businesses and leads. but sometimes i feel he doesn't kno where to draw the line between business and personal matters. u can help ur client, yes, but i jus feel uncomfortable abt him having to play a listening ear to other women when they r feeling down. is tt a part of his job scope?? does he realli need to go tt far to "serve" his clients?
it is not tt i dun trust him, i do. it is those women tt i dun trust. and the thot of another woman taken a liking to him and the fact tt he takes it as a part of his job and does not mind spending time with them is horrrifyingly scary to me. some women will go all out jus to get the man they want and the man, being so ignorant and stupid sometimes, will give in unknowingly to temptations and what not. i dun wan him in a position like tt. why shud i let him go out and jeopardize his r/ship like tt?
to b honest, wat sort of woman will pour out her heart to someone who is in a business transaction with her? definitely not me. i wud either look for frens to talk to or, of cuz, talk to my bf. or if i dun haf a bf, i wud talk to the guy tt i like/fancy at tt point in time. ok ok, but then again, i mus not impose my principles and logic on other ppl. whateva it is, i feel uneasy abt the closeness of the r/ship he shares with his clients. yet there is nothing i can do abt it cuz i dun deny the fact tt this is the very thing of his character tt has gotten him so much business so far.
it's funny, i haf gotten over this long ago. tt he has to go out and meet new ppl all the time, be it men or women. but this particular client, is giving me the creeps. the first time i met her, she told me, "u're lucky i'm not younger, otherwise i wud haf eaten up this bf of urs." altho she said it in a joking fashion, it made me uncomfortable cuz i kno of her r/ship histories. and they aren't exactly very glamourous to begin with. and the fact is he is spending more time with her than most other clients. i kno there is nothing fishy but i jus cannot tolerate him being at her beck and call. argh!!!! i can't stop thinking abt this!! and i dun wanna think abt it!!
i dun understand why i nv fail to make myself more miserable.
:: some things can't b bought with $$$ ::
i love gg out with my babe. we alwaes haf the most fun tgt.. no matter wat we do.. we can b jus sitting by the pool jus talking thrash, and laughing so madly we almost roll onto the floor from our chairs. we haf gone out in the early morn to town and doing stupid stuff like trying out all the perfumes at DFS and reading up all the horoscopes in girly magazines at borders. we do manicures tgt and get the manicurist laughing to no end with us. we go clubbing tgt, sometimes jus the 2 of us and we haf so much fun in each other's company. sometimes it irks me cuz we feel like paris and nicole. hhhaha. yday we both got the same strawberry shortcake handphone strap tt is jus.. very very attention seeking. but horribly adorable!! i wun post it up cuz i dun wan the whole world using the same thing as me! :p
so yday i was out with my darling babe again. i had to go to the men's dept at taka to get something.. and it was the same level as the toy dept.. so.. our weird antics acted up again.. we walked right into the dept.. and started ooh-ing and aw-ing like little girls.. it realli meant so much to us looking at our childhood toys like My Little Pony and Little Twin Stars considering we've been friends since we were 9! it was such a sweet thing to do with a best gal pal. we spent abt an hour at the toy dept lost in our childhood wonderland. and feeling upset at how cheap these novelties are selling for now. it used to the branded toys in my time.. now it's like so understated.. and the toys tt were ridiculously expensive now.. i never even heard
of them b4. *sigh..* how time flies..
babe and i spent quite some time at the barbie's corner.. looking at how her face has evolved over time.. and we realised the timeless plastic beauty has quite a fashion sense now. and i saw a particular barbie, "The Spring Barbie", donning such a beautiful dress, i had to take a picture of it!
i think i might make my wedding gown something like this. hahha.. inspired by Barbie!
b4 we made our way home, we were jus gallavanting in town and we walked past the bus stop outside orchard emerald.. and guess wat i saw..!
CRISTIANO RONALDO on the PORTUGAL bulletin catching on the world cup fever. mus say he doesn't look good there but.. it's RONALDO!! at our own bus stop! haha. i quickly snapped a photo and i sent it to my bf. jus for fun (cuz he knos i am crazy abt RONALDO.) he called me back instantaneously saying, "Wat u send me, wanna die ar!?" hahahhaha... wasn't expecting such a violent retaliation..! :p
it was a short 2 hours plus meet up with my babe.. but i now haf so much more fond memories of our friendship. times like these makes me feel my life is complete. and tt some things, jus can't b bought with money. :)
love u, babe.. love u, b.. love u, everybody!!!
:: Full House ::
I jus finished watching Full House. Not Nice. But Rain is cute. So darn cute! I love Bi!!!
PS: i cannot get enuff of the father bear, mother bear and baby bear song!!! if anyone knows where i can got an mp3 file of it, pls provide link!! Thank u!!!
:: welcome to my bimbo blog! ::
for the upteenth time, i've forgotten how to blog. even as i type now, my mind is empty.. wat shud the nex sentence b?
perhaps i shud start with updates of the past week/s. i haf been trying my utmost best to contain my frustrations ans anger and guess wat. it works! my bf and i hardly ever quarrel now (touch wood!) and even if we do squibble for a bit, a "sorry" normally comes out faster now. and it's either him or me, not one sided anymore.. i wud say.. this r/ship is pretty healthy now. funny thing is, i alwaes used to wonder whether i wud b happy if i controlled my emotions like wat i am doing now.. and i alwaes refused to do tt cuz i feared things wud turn out worse.. i mean, knowing myself so well. but guess wat.. i think the happiest person from my changes is not my bf.. but myself! there's so much more trust and confidence in the r/ship now.. it feels wonderful. moral of the story is: if u dun try, u dunno! for once, it realli is true. even i underestimated myself (cuz i thot i knew myself so well).
few weeks bac i was in a lost pertaining to my career path. i still am. i wud say i am in a good plc now.. even tho i haf no interest nor passion for it.. i am happy where i am. i was thinkin of getting out of it and doing something else tt wud keep me interested for a while.. and i went for interviews and stuff.. only to realise wat i haf is not even enuff to b considered "experience". hai. looks like i jus gotta con't slogging where i am. (ok i dun actually hafta slog here.. but i dun like e nature of the job.. so.. ya..) at least the pay is good. and is sustaining me real well. so conclusion.. I STAY! :)
my mom's recovering well from her op.. she had her womb removed as she had multiple cysts growths tt may turn malign overtime. apparently my mom was very prone to malign cysts (cancerous lumps of cells) and therefore, the doctor advised her to haf the entire womb removed. she is no longer in pain (the lumps were so huge it was painful for her) and is recovering real quick. it's been less than a month and she oredi can run. haha.
my brother and i haf more in common lately. we also talk more to each other now especially during the general elections. my brother is into politics and i am somehow influenced. i enjpy discussing political issues with him, even US/China/Thailand politics. sometimes his knowledge in the worldly matters makes me proud of him.. despite him only being 18 yrs old this year.. also probably since he is also in ITE now.. i can defintiely relate. he turns to me for advise more often lately and i quite like the r/ship i haf with my brother now. :) it makes me feel like he's finally grown up. i jus wish my mom wud stop spoiling him so much.
there are some issues i wan to talk abt.. but probably not a wise choice cuz u nv kno who reads ur blog these days. argh. it sucks. sometimes i wonder why i even haf a blog. in fact it is the very reason why i dun update sometimes.. cuz it's like, who cares man. it's jus another bimbo blog. :( i guess.. this is a bimbo blog. except i dun talk abt fake eyelashes. :p (no offence to those who talks abt fake eyelashes in their blogs, eh!)
xx is a very daring blogger. i probably will nv haf her kind of guts. cuz i care too much abt how ppl feel. it's probably not so nice to read abt something tt is a personal attack 2 urself.. so.. do not wat u dun wan others to do unto u.
the end.
