:: misery! ::
sometimes i realli dunno how to feel, what to feel and how to deal with what i feel. i jolly well kno the profession he is in and i shud also jolly well accept all tt comes with the profession. after all, maintaining relationships is what gets him more businesses and leads. but sometimes i feel he doesn't kno where to draw the line between business and personal matters. u can help ur client, yes, but i jus feel uncomfortable abt him having to play a listening ear to other women when they r feeling down. is tt a part of his job scope?? does he realli need to go tt far to "serve" his clients?it is not tt i dun trust him, i do. it is those women tt i dun trust. and the thot of another woman taken a liking to him and the fact tt he takes it as a part of his job and does not mind spending time with them is horrrifyingly scary to me. some women will go all out jus to get the man they want and the man, being so ignorant and stupid sometimes, will give in unknowingly to temptations and what not. i dun wan him in a position like tt. why shud i let him go out and jeopardize his r/ship like tt?
to b honest, wat sort of woman will pour out her heart to someone who is in a business transaction with her? definitely not me. i wud either look for frens to talk to or, of cuz, talk to my bf. or if i dun haf a bf, i wud talk to the guy tt i like/fancy at tt point in time. ok ok, but then again, i mus not impose my principles and logic on other ppl. whateva it is, i feel uneasy abt the closeness of the r/ship he shares with his clients. yet there is nothing i can do abt it cuz i dun deny the fact tt this is the very thing of his character tt has gotten him so much business so far.
it's funny, i haf gotten over this long ago. tt he has to go out and meet new ppl all the time, be it men or women. but this particular client, is giving me the creeps. the first time i met her, she told me, "u're lucky i'm not younger, otherwise i wud haf eaten up this bf of urs." altho she said it in a joking fashion, it made me uncomfortable cuz i kno of her r/ship histories. and they aren't exactly very glamourous to begin with. and the fact is he is spending more time with her than most other clients. i kno there is nothing fishy but i jus cannot tolerate him being at her beck and call. argh!!!! i can't stop thinking abt this!! and i dun wanna think abt it!!
i dun understand why i nv fail to make myself more miserable.
posted by Mrs. Lee @ 4:41 PM
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