:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

:: welcome to my bimbo blog! ::

for the upteenth time, i've forgotten how to blog. even as i type now, my mind is empty.. wat shud the nex sentence b?

perhaps i shud start with updates of the past week/s. i haf been trying my utmost best to contain my frustrations ans anger and guess wat. it works! my bf and i hardly ever quarrel now (touch wood!) and even if we do squibble for a bit, a "sorry" normally comes out faster now. and it's either him or me, not one sided anymore.. i wud say.. this r/ship is pretty healthy now. funny thing is, i alwaes used to wonder whether i wud b happy if i controlled my emotions like wat i am doing now.. and i alwaes refused to do tt cuz i feared things wud turn out worse.. i mean, knowing myself so well. but guess wat.. i think the happiest person from my changes is not my bf.. but myself! there's so much more trust and confidence in the r/ship now.. it feels wonderful. moral of the story is: if u dun try, u dunno! for once, it realli is true. even i underestimated myself (cuz i thot i knew myself so well).

few weeks bac i was in a lost pertaining to my career path. i still am. i wud say i am in a good plc now.. even tho i haf no interest nor passion for it.. i am happy where i am. i was thinkin of getting out of it and doing something else tt wud keep me interested for a while.. and i went for interviews and stuff.. only to realise wat i haf is not even enuff to b considered "experience". hai. looks like i jus gotta con't slogging where i am. (ok i dun actually hafta slog here.. but i dun like e nature of the job.. so.. ya..) at least the pay is good. and is sustaining me real well. so conclusion.. I STAY! :)

my mom's recovering well from her op.. she had her womb removed as she had multiple cysts growths tt may turn malign overtime. apparently my mom was very prone to malign cysts (cancerous lumps of cells) and therefore, the doctor advised her to haf the entire womb removed. she is no longer in pain (the lumps were so huge it was painful for her) and is recovering real quick. it's been less than a month and she oredi can run. haha.

my brother and i haf more in common lately. we also talk more to each other now especially during the general elections. my brother is into politics and i am somehow influenced. i enjpy discussing political issues with him, even US/China/Thailand politics. sometimes his knowledge in the worldly matters makes me proud of him.. despite him only being 18 yrs old this year.. also probably since he is also in ITE now.. i can defintiely relate. he turns to me for advise more often lately and i quite like the r/ship i haf with my brother now. :) it makes me feel like he's finally grown up. i jus wish my mom wud stop spoiling him so much.

there are some issues i wan to talk abt.. but probably not a wise choice cuz u nv kno who reads ur blog these days. argh. it sucks. sometimes i wonder why i even haf a blog. in fact it is the very reason why i dun update sometimes.. cuz it's like, who cares man. it's jus another bimbo blog. :( i guess.. this is a bimbo blog. except i dun talk abt fake eyelashes. :p (no offence to those who talks abt fake eyelashes in their blogs, eh!)

xx is a very daring blogger. i probably will nv haf her kind of guts. cuz i care too much abt how ppl feel. it's probably not so nice to read abt something tt is a personal attack 2 urself.. so.. do not wat u dun wan others to do unto u.

the end.

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 5:44 PM