:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

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posted by Mrs. Lee @ 6:51 PM 0 comments

:: Get This Straight ::

Excuse me, dun u tell me what to do.

I call the shots now.

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 9:56 AM 0 comments

:: are you a friend to me? think again. ::

this is one subject i've neglected for a long time. ever since i got attached, this part of my life seemed to diminish in significance. which shud nv b the case, of cuz.

i haf a grp of realli cool gals, or so i thot. we share good times tgt mostly, bad times we try not to remember too much. but of late, i can't seem to get over some things tt happened. maybe it has been building up, maybe i have been played out too much by my so-called frens. and i haf reached the final straw. but now tt i haf come to this point, i dunno wat to do.

the more i thot abt it, the more i did not understand. if they realli were a friend to me, wud they desert me in my hour of need? one of them did something i dun wan her to do, and the other one did not do something i wanted her to do. and both of these things meant a great deal to me, yet my feelings were simply overlooked to satisfy the pleasure of another/their own.. which i strongly believe meant no significance to them whether or not they did it.

on a seperate note, another fren thinks we're fools. and tt we dunno her lies. if someone is gonna b so dishonest with me all the time, i dun see a point in building tt r'ship with her. if we r truly frens, y wud we wear masks in front of each other? this is definitely not the kind of fren i want.

which made me come to realise this: it is not how long/much u kno a person tt matters, it has how far u r willing to go for her.

i do not haf many frens. even so, i do not need those who take me for a ride when i take them seriously.

the hurt is jus not worth it.

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 11:36 AM 0 comments

:: my evil twin is back ::

i honestly thot i had gotten over the previous incident. i had myself fooled even.

i kno i haven't when i went berserk yday at the mere mention of her name. it was so traumatising.. the crying-myself-to-sleep happened all over again. the doubts lingered again. her actions clouded my rationality again.

worst thing is no one will ever understand how traumatised i am by her. she seems so harmless, so pleasant. but some part of me am so sure that she has something up her sleeves.. and she's just waiting for an opportune time to attack.

my evil twin is back.

i am feeling sour, feeling that mean person inside me acting up. i tried to control my emotions.. but it wudn't back down.. it jus all came out like a volcano eruption.

and i ruined that peace we've enjoyed for more than a month now..

all becuz of HER.

i hate all that pretense. she's so nice to me, i kno it's a pretense. she's so prayerful and "motherly". but her actions jus dun coincide with wat she says.

WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE SEEING HER FLAWS?? am i realli being bias? or are the others too taken with her to see it??

i dun wanna think abt it. i wish i nv haf to see her again.

motherf.

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 3:03 PM 0 comments

:: a wonderful world ::

i think i finally found wat i haf been searching for all this time.. i am at peace with everything and everyone.. and everything is jus falling into place nicely. but things wud b perfect if i had more money. :p kidding. i am happy with wat i am getting. :)

i haf alwaes been tt rash, impatient person.. for as long as i can remember.. but lately, i haf been trying to b calm, rational.. and most of all.. patient.. the results are clear to see. and quick too. ppl ard me act up less.. (cuz i am acting up less too) and everyone is happier. it is amazing how one person decides to change the way she lives her life can affect all those around her. like "butterfly effect". i can literally see happier faces and ppl having pleasant days cuz i choose to behave the way i do. energy is very contagious. if there is a vibe of negative energy gg around, everyone gets hit. same goes for positive energy. i realise so many things can b resolved in a matter of seconds if ppl jus look beyond their anger and hate.. things are realli not as bad as they seem. we live in singapore, how bad can things be for us? if only we knew how protected we are.

walking out of my less pleasant self has made me a happier person.. those ard me haf also benefitted from my subtle change..

self-reflection happens only when u want it to.. think abt yourself today and how u can make this world truly a wonderful place. if not the whole world, then at least ur own. :)

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 11:56 AM 4 comments

:: BGR ::

I seem to b hearing the same case scenario over and over. and i'm curious as to how many versions of advice/answers there can be. Come on everyone & anyone, flood my comments! Lemme do a study of human behaviour for the thing called LOVE.

"Boy and girl haf been tgt for years.. they've gone thru a lot to find the stability they now have in their r'ship. However, it didn't come easy.. it was thru countless quarrels and many sleepless nights tt they resolved the differences between them. and a couple of break ups too. The quarrels have strained the r'ship so bad that even tho Boy and Girl do love each other, a lot of things haf just become numb. They quarrel less now cuz Boy dun wanna quarrel anymore. He will give in to her even tho it makes him unhappy. All the things that used to mean so much to Boy, now jus doesn't anymore cuz Girl doesn't like to be grilled abt the nitty-gritty details. Boy used to do everything his way in the r'ship. But now, he knos tt if he doesn't start doing it her way, the r'ship will die in a matter of time. So even tho the r'ship is smoothsailing on the outside, Boy is truly unhappy on the inside. But he jus wants Girl to be happy.

Boy forces himself to b disinterested in the things tt r gg on in Girl's life, so tt when he finds out abt things tt Girl doesn't tell him, he wun hurt so bad. Day by day, Boy starts to realli become disinterested in Girl's life. He doesn't question her on where she goes or what she does. He doesn't get angry if he finds out things tt Girl hasn't been sharing with him but with her friends and family. It used to bother Boy so much tt Girl spends so much time at work, now Boy spends his time and concentration on his work too.

Angel was a fren Boy met before he met Girl. But angel had a bf then when Boy fell in love with her. So Boy forced himself to distant from her and eventually met Girl. Few years later, he met Angel again. This time, Angel is single and has fallen in love with Boy. They hit it off realli well and just when Boy is tired of pretending to be happy with Girl and how she wants to run the r'ship, Girl is showing positive vibes abt the r'ship. She starts to spend more time with Boy, give in more to Boy and even rejects her friends' offers to go out. Instead, she spends her weekends with Boy.

Angel knos tt Boy has a gf and she does not want to spoil things for Boy. But everytime Angel sees Boy, she can't help but light up with a smile in her eyes and allow herself to enjoy the company of Boy.

Boy found out from frens tt Angel liked Boy years ago when they met, but as she was attached, she did not want to complicate things. This time round, the tables were turned.. and there was nothing anyone could do abt the situation.

Angel will be gg away for work in a few months time, but will return in 2 years. Boy knows tt if it doesn't happen this time, it wud not happen 2 years later. But Boy is also aware tt what is gg on between him and Girl is part and parcel of being in a r'ship. tt all r'ships haf the same problems. Or do they? Wud it be better with someone else? But Boy is already so used to being with Girl.. wud he be able to go into a new r'ship is give his all again without holding back for fear of hurt?

Question is, wat wud u do if u were Boy?"

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 10:48 AM 5 comments

:: thankew my lucky stars, whoever you are! ::

omg.

i am so swamped at work.

but.

I AM SO HAPPY!

i have finally found my direction in life and a focus in my miserably short attention span.

1st time ever, it felt good to take my mind off my bf for a while. a very long while. (as long as i am at work!)

and i realised.. so tt is not wat life is all about. he is not the only thing tt keeps me happy. how could tt ever be?

i jus can't believe how lucky i am to haf landed myself in this job. i must haf been blessed by a million lucky stars in a lifetime..!

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 5:21 PM 0 comments