:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

:: wat's e story, morning glory? ::

one of e worse dilemmas ever is whether u shud please urself or someone else.. by pleasing urself, u might b making unreasonable demands on e other person.. but pleasing the other one will make urself feel shitty and miserable.. so how, brown cow?

compromising is easy to say but hard to do.. expecially for me, i dunno y.. if i compromise, i alwaes do it unwillingly. unless the other party knos wat i am giving up or going against my own principles for.. in other words, does e other person appreciate it. sometimes i am so sick of such topics, i dun wanna think abt it, talk abt it or even kno abt it. i wanna jus forget abt everything sometimes.. but my heart cannot take e aches tt comes with it. y issit so hard to stay in a relationship?? i starting to feel i'm not suitable to b in one.. i'm possessive, easily agitated, jealous freak to some (but i alwaes have good grounds for being jealous), "G-A-P", i guess e list goes on. so u mus b wondering, i dun sound like e one suffering.. i'm e one inflicting pain and causing trouble for my other partner.. u can say tt again.. and again and again and again..

so, wat's in store for us now? we r into e 3rd yr of our relationship.. still dun haf a good idea of wat each other is like.. alwaes running into disagreements.. is tt normal? shud we stop making this relationship exclusive so tt it can get a breather and perhaps make this relationship more healthy in e long run? but tt is against my beliefs.. i dun believe in open relationships.. NO.. u can go on and fantasize abt it but it is NOT gonna happen. so then wat.. WAT??

omg i am in a totally messed up state of mind.. i realli can't think logically.. i'm insanely disturbed.. visibly upset and sensibly calm.. i dunno wat i am trying to say.. do u??

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 3:16 PM