:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

:: relationships are hard ::

i am a lucky girl. i haf 3 guys in my life who genuinely care for me. but i only have one heart and so i can only commit to one. i do not like all of these 3 guys at the same but at different points of my life and so all of them have a special place in my heart (they differ in size tho). the biggest share (which may well b about 99%, if u hav to calculate) of cuz belongs to my one and only. the remaining 1% has got 2 split between the 2 guys. which i have not had a real relationship with. let's call them A & B. but then u kno, a drop of black ink can dilute a pot of clear water, cause small ripples and probably some slight reactions.. so it does some things to my emotional well-being sometimes. especially when i think of A.. i wud say, he was my 1st love. (sorry 4 e mushiness) so u kno, hard 2 get over and done with cuz flashbacks come 2 my mind ALL THE TIME when i'm reminded of him. as for B.. hmm.. he is like this guy i wish i had a relationship with but nv had.. and i will alwaes b wondering abt "how it will b if..", "wat wud happen if we.." and so on. u kno, things like tt.

for now, i am absolutely in bliss with my bf.. and i haf no intentions of changing anything. but well, i can't stop my mind from gg where it wants to go sometimes. and lately, it has been been realli hard to control. but i kno for sure wat i want and i kno i'm gonna make it happen. after all, i dun wanna hurt anyone and especially not the one i truly love. wat can i say, relationships r hard. realli.

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 10:55 AM