:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

:: Welcome to the REAL World ::

there is a no such thing as free lunch in the world. i learnt it the hard way.

so here i am, sending out an average of 8 resumes a day. not 1 has gotten back. it's sad. & it's tough. & it's making me scared. do i haf to settle for something i dun enjoy doing jus for e sake of having a job? maybe i shudn't haf been so harsh with my words with a fren of mine who seemed to haf bummed forever b4 finally getting a job. no i dun wanna b in her shoes. so i will *add oil*!!!

so for now, there's realli nothing to do but bum. i considered getting a part time job but tt will kinda get in the way of my job-hunting. wat if i can't get off from my part time job to go for an interview? wat if 1 week into my new part time job i get a full time job & i haf to quit? tt's not very responsible..

so i decided i might not get a part time job for now. at least not one tt requires commitment.

this whole episode has made me feel terrible abt myself. i can't explain. it's like it was not my fault from the beginning to the end, yet i am treated like i am the one who is in the wrong. i had to quit my job. i left w/o telling anyone why. & all the work is left incomplete. (i dun like being so irresponsible) but since -he- started mixing business with pleasure, i haf no choice but to follow suit. but honestly, i haf been forced into making this decision. & even tho it is not my fault, i am the one tt is suffering. not to mention it has been such a traumatizing encounter for me. i am scared, upset, angry & cheated all at onced. it is so unfair. and now, i can't find a job.

i wud say this is one of my lowest periods.. i feel like such a stupid person to haf been led into such a trap. & i guess i haf no one to blame but myself. i am such a sorry ass.

:(

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 2:30 PM