:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

:: but it hurts ::

i woke up this morning.. as usual.. in a lost. and suddenly frightened so much by the silence in my mind and in my heart.. and the revelavations tt came along with it..

do u kno how it feels like when the future u've been looking forward to.. didn't exist anymore.. never going to happen..
wat if u wanted to fulfill all ur promises but u haf been robbed of tt right..
u realise all the things tt haf been routine to u, haf taken on a different agenda.. and tt it does not haf to b routine anymore..
u realise u've given so much of urself to someone.. tt w/o the person.. u r really nobody..
u wonder how ur heart is so empty.. yet it is filled with pain..
i wud much rather b separated by death than by hate..

i realli wanna move on.. like how i used to when i was happily single.. except now i am suddenly single..

i wanna b able to accept tt he does not care anymore.. but it hurts..
i wanna b able to feel happy for him to b leading a better life w/o me.. but it hurts..
i wanna b able to smile from the heart when i kno he has gotten a new partner.. but it hurts..
i wanna b able to love another person w/o being reminded of him.. but it hurts..
i wanna b able to talk to him as a friend.. but it hurts..
i wanna b able to b a part of his life but not get involved.. but it hurts..

it hurts..

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 3:46 PM