:: My Drama-Rama Mind ::

:: issit worth it? ::

i can't even remember how many times i haf repeatedly asked my bf to let me kno where he goes. i used to get realli realli angry abt him not telling me. nowadays, it's down to jus e "i'm in office" & "i'm home" msgs. i guess tt's enuff & i can't b asking him to tell me every single plc he goes since he's in e sales line. but lately it's down to jus e "i'm home" msgs. one msg a day from him & no phonecalls at all does not sound right to me. my frens & their bfs call each other hundreds of times everyday. jus to see how they're doing. why does mine hafta b different?

yday noon during lunch, i called him & wanted to ask if he was still sleeping cuz he had not replied my msg in the morning. but i called only to find tt he was oredi up & about & he did not tell me he had gone to upper serangoon to check out e studio with joel. so i asked like a kitten, "how come u nv tell me one.." he replied, "u nv ask me to tell u wat, u go office also nv tell me." tt's it man. tt was e most irresponsible thing he has ever said to me. u mean to say i hafta tell u exactly wat u hafta to do in this relationship?? like i hafta list within how many rings he must answer my call, wat kind of msgs he is allowed to send me & wat is not, or where he goes he must tell me & where he need not? RIDICULOUS! tt was simply a lame excuse. worst of all, i hate it when he uses e "cuz u nv so i also nv" theory. if this relationship is gg to work this way, i dunno how long it's gonna last. if no one ever takes e initiative to do something, then no one will ever follow. in e 1st plc, right from e first day i knew him, he was nv e kind who wanted to kno where i went/wat i did. i was e one who alwaes insisted he told me where he went/wat he is doing. so then shud i b so thick-skinned to tell him every single thing i do when he has not asked to b told/kicked a fuss abt? he has nv instilled in this relationship tt he wants to kno my itsy-bitsy daily details, unlike me. i haf told him over & over. I WANT TO KNO. so how come he is now saying i dun tell him when i reach e office every morning?!?! & tt that is e reason y he didn't tell me where he went tt morning?? it is totally irresponsible of him to say tt. utterly disappointing.

when he called me at night, he had no clue tt i had been angry abt this. how sensitive eh. & when he did, he scolded me saying i was GL cuz i didn't tell him why i was angry. he said tt i was getting a kick out of making him unhappy. tt realli put a knife thru me.

something so simple, tt cud b easily resolved.. has got into such a mess now. i dun even kno wat to tell him. he cud haf simply told me to msg him every morning when i reached office. all i wanted was to kno when he gets to e office & whether he got home safely. i dun think tt is too much to ask.

i was angry, but now i'm jus upset. is this realli worth it?

posted by Mrs. Lee @ 10:04 AM